As if the miscarriage wasn't hard enough on me emotionally, here I am with more problems.
More sadness. More pain.
I thought it was supposed to be easy to get pregnant after a miscarriage. Uhm, no. It hasn't been. It's been incredibly hard. In fact, incredibly impossible.
I haven't been ovulating, nor do I think I ever will again (on my own at least). Ouch.
It's hard to hear. Hard to comprehend. Who knew this baby making business would be so hard? I sure didn't.
I'm planning on going to an infertility doctor at the end of the month, so that's one thing to look forward to. I'm excited to see what the doctor can do for me. But, at the same time I am terrified about what I'll hear about my body.
Oh, my body. I already hate it. So much. Mr. Smiling and I have been trying to have a baby for a year now, and we have nothing to show for it except for heartache. And, it's all my fault. It's a hard thing to deal with, definitely.
On top of that, we are in so much debt from the miscarriage. At times, I feel like we barely make it through. It seems wrong that I'm being charged so much for a miscarriage. I came home with no baby, as if that wasn't punishment enough.
Of course, husband and I aren't about to give up our baby wishes, just yet. In fact, we won't give up on a baby ever. We were born to be parents, I know we were.
So, though this journey has been completely heartbreaking and has broken me down to the core, I will not give up.
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I didnt realize how much money would be involved with a miscarriage. That is terrible. I am so sorry you guys are going through this. :[
ReplyDeletePlease let me know what the doctor says, I pray everything will be fine and he will give you some fertility pills. :]
I am sorry about your miscarriage. It must be so hard for you, especially having to deal with a debt as well.
ReplyDeleteHang in there and dont ever give up hope, hope is what helps us to carry on, keeps us trying for a baby. It will happen one day